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Tuesday, April 14, 2015

How do you leave work problems at work?

Quick post tonight as I finally get sleepy at 1 a.m...

How do you keep your work problems at work and keep them from affecting your personal life? I really want to know. 

I've been trying so hard to do just that. I've been so down at work lately, so hopeless and unsure of my next move, which is of course really exhausting. I try to not let those feelings come home with me. I have such a good time in my non-work life. I have a lot going for me in that regard and I've found people and activities that make me really happy and at peace... but then, those work problems creep in. 

Sometimes, I let them in because I like to be proactive, almost to a fault, and have Plans A, B, and C mapped out in my mind before any shit hits the fan. But a lot of the time, it sneaks up on me and before I know it, I'm melting down over something insignificant and ultimately my mind ends up on the land mine that is my career right now and I cry even harder. 

I guess it's always there, in the deep recesses of my brain. That feeling that I've failed, that it hasn't gone the way it was supposed to go, that old "what the fuck am I going to do now" sensation. I know work isn't everything, it isn't even the most important thing, but I miss feeling confident and competent on the job. 

A lot of it isn't my fault, but it's still placed on my shoulders, and anyway, I don't want to get into all that right now.

So really, what I want to know is... how the fuck do I leave that negativity at work? Especially for those times I am caught unaware?